Sometimes I Wonder...

Sometimes, I wonder, what if I run out of things to say?
What if I lose my voice, lose my ability to share my opinion?
What if my writing peters out into nothingness?
What if I never get recognised for my talent? Or what if I'm not even talented enough to be recognised?

These are the things I fear...

But to fear, is to disable yourself, to fear is to admit that there is something stopping you from achieving greatness, it is the recognition and acceptance that you may not succeed, that you may not fulfill your dreams. It is allowing yourself to step back, to be defeated, to let someone else take your spot in the limelight.

So if everyone fears, no one succeeds.
If everyone takes that step back, there is no one left to stand up, to step forward, to proclaim, 'I am not afraid!'
And if everyone took that step back, well we would have nothing, all those great minds, of peace, of love, creativity, talent, invention, and independence. All those minds would be disregarded, forgotten and left in the shadows.

I guess I just have to teach myself, not to fear.

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And even though I had to wait that little while longer to feel your skin, lips, breath on my neck, and even though I won't be able to experience this love and affection for long, it is more than worth it.

These moments are fleeting, but when they come I am overcome by passion, and love, to feel you around me, next to me, to know that you are keeping me safe, for those few short moments, makes me the happiest girl in the world.

You leave me wanting for nothing but your attention, leave me thinking of nothing but you're presence, leave me needing nothing but your word in my ear.

This may not be the most eloquent description I've ever written, but I know you will understand; when a love like this comes around, words can not describe the extent of the pleasure I feel with you.


A dedication to my love.

Who Am I?

Is it possible that one could be, a mere entity, wandering this earth, their purpose in life, solely, to please?
What if there are people who are so malleable that they cannot hold onto one true persona, or one way of life; so they fluctuate, between minds, being what they are wanted to be? Being someone different, with each different person they encounter?

But they do not change in order to be accepted and liked, only to make those around them happy, in order to be the person each and everyone they encounter, can trust, depend on, talk to.

Is it possible that someone could live a happy, fulfilled life, never knowing who they truly are, because,

they aren't truly anything?

Or maybe,
just maybe,
their identity lies in the hands of the person they meet who means most of all to them, a lover, a friend, a relation??

Maybe they only find their true identity when they find this person, deciding that this person is everything they want, so they become everything he/she could ever want?

So maybe, the question: WHO AM I? bares no meaning in this context, because you will be, who you are told to be.

You will be everybody,

but you will be no one.

'The trouble was, I had been inadequate all along, I simply hadn’t thought about it.' - Sylvia Plath

Green Lights

So I have just been listening to Aloe Blacc - Green Lights, and it inspired me to write, as it's been a little while. So I'm just going to write about positivity and Aloe Blacc's ability to inspire and make people feel good.

In this song he describes, 'something special happened today', a series of events in which he was lucky. But it said something different to me, something along the lines of this; there's no need to sit around waiting for something special to happen, or your luck to change. Why not get up, and make that something special happen. It is up to us as individuals to create our own luck, to find opportunities and put ourselves out there, and even if we don't make it the first time over, as least we can take pride in the fact that we tried.

Life isn't about coasting through waiting for something to happen, it's about creating the world YOU want to live in, creating the person YOU want to be, so YOU can take pride in what YOU have and who YOU are.

So make something special happen today.
For You.